Saturday, October 24, 2009

A beautiful figment of mankind's thought....


Hi everyone…ive tried poetry this time....read this post if u remotely think that mathematics is beautiful…forget all ur college math and stuff for now as this post is supposed to be really non technical……so here it goes….

I wonder how math really describes nature,
With such precise solutions,
Leaving no room for a doubt or a confusion,
Even though abstractness is its main feature.

Long ago, it all started with the concept called “Number”,
Which spawned the process of “Counting”,
And some chose to loose their slumber,
To develop this counting into something called “Mapping”.

Several years later the world saw a world of conceptualization
With Addition, Subtraction, Multiplication and Division.
From then on, math had no stopping,
And it literally went into the mode of overclocking.

In the mean time came a person called Issac Newton,
Whose thinking was incredibly meticulous;
He asked many subtle but non-obvious questions about a function,
And later answered them himself by inventing “Calculus”.

Math was now in the top gear of its development,
Now it has a learning strategy of its own which relies mostly on the “Axioms”,
Which are used by almost all graduate students,
To prove many brilliant and intriguing lemmas and theorems.

Inspite of theoritizing various functions, differentials, integrals and transforms,
U have to work on these mostly with the help of a electronic machine for computing,
I bet, math will never cease you from wondering,
If you know that, all that happens inside the machine is just the same old process of counting.


P.S: Please leave your comments.......

Monday, October 12, 2009

ANNI plays "Tennis"/tennis.........


Hi everyone……its been a long long time since I blogged……mainly because I couldn’t find a topic which didn’t include someone getting lost :D ……….hope you like this…...and here it goes…...

“Macchaaa…..ill be playing tennis today….yipppiieee ke yayy!!!!”, exclaimed Anni. ”Relax mate….its not that big a deal”, replied Madhu, one of Anni’s friends. Yes, it was a big deal a huge deal for Anni. Firstly, he is crazy about tennis….when I say crazy im not being metaphorical. His obsession is magnified by his attitude when any discussion is going on which has an infinitesimal amount of tennis in it, even like tennis balls, or some discussion about Reebok shirts etc. Today, he would be going to Best club in Rajarajeshwarinagar, Bangalore after his college to take part in tennis selection for the college team. The main event is a week ahead. The surprising and a real unfortunate thing is that, this guy HASN’T PLAYED ON A TENNIS COURT.

Anni’s brother had got him tennis racquet years ago. As, there was dearth of space to play this game, he had used the racquet for some other purposes, namely trying to hit stones and small coconuts as far as possible, playing cricket once a while etc. After he shifted to the current house, he started to play “TENNIS”. This is how he played.
There a house which is built behind anni’s and attached to his house. It is a floor higher, and as a result you have a high wall attached to your terrace. The scene is much like a squash court but an open one. Hit the ball to the wall and just keep doing that with no sense of court size, the angle with which you hit or whatsoever. He learnt forehand, backhand and what not but on a TERRACE. Good thing was Anni practiced a lottttt, he thought himself being in a grand slam match and stuff, tried to simulate his behaviour accordingly, mannnn he is crazy about this game. He has markers on the wall which is supposed to be areas where if hit gives you a winner…… :D…..He used call his friends often to play “Tennis” and was usually praised for his “Talent”. He had the Federer backhand, the Nalbandian slice and all such stuff. He was a very confident person when it came to playing tennis even though he had played “Tennis”.

Yesterday evening he had been to the sports room with his friend Anirudh to give his name for the selections. “Hello sir, im anni and I want to take part in tennis selections”, said Anni brimming with confidence. “Okay kid, do you practice still? Have you any tournaments earlier?”, enquired the sports guy. “Hmmm…actually I practice a lott nowadays and I have not been in tournaments”, replied anni, struggling really hard to not look at his friends face as he was bursting with laughter. But Anni was careful not to lie. “Do you practice in any club?”, asked the sports guy. “No sir, not now….but I can play really well……you can just see once…..i play well”,replied Anni with ease. Looking at his confidence, “Okay….then fill in your details here, ill give you a call later”, said he. Yes…..the first hurdle was crossed. Anni was doing all this for the primary reason that he wanted to play on a court once. He went back home and practiced his game for an hour or so. That night he went to sleep with thoughts nothing other than him hitting big forehands on the court.

“Hey....im Sandeep from mech. And you must be Anni?”, asked Sandeep near the coffee shop after the college, he was the guy who was to conduct the selections. He had been to tournaments before. He was a lean guy, shorter than Anni with a bit overly gelled hair and collarless t-shirt which said ‘Global issues’…..you cant tell he plays tennis if you look at him “Yeah….im im Anni….so when are we leaving to the club?”, asked anni with pure passion for tennis in his heart. “Wait up dude…..there are 3 more people to come…..and if anyone misses…..let the four of us go to the tournament….what do you say?”, said Sandeep. Anni was never this happy for months. “Yeahhhh….suuuureee…..lets do it….”, Anni almost shrieked. “Relax man”, said Sandeep. “Sooo…..do you play doubles….or are a singles specialist?”, enquired Sandeep. “You can say im singles specialist…..but I would really not mind playing doubles”,Anni said….Watttttttttt u r a singles specialist???????...Anni thought….Anni was standing near the coffee shop waiting for others to come. “Hi….are you waiting for tennis selections?”, asked a girl. “Yeah…yeah…im Anni and you have to fill your details in this form”, anni handed her the form. “Okay…thnx…”,said she and left. She came back with the form filled. “Do you play competitive tennis?I have not been in any major tournament before”, the girl asked. Yeah……I have played many majors like Wimbledon….haha…Anni thought…”I do play tennis very competitively…...but I haven’t played any tournaments”, replied Anni. The girl giggled and left. Unfortunately, Anni didn’t know what competitive tennis meant. The good news is that tennis girl couldn’t come to the selections as she didn’t have any doubles partner. One person down…which meant Anni could enter the tournament without being selected....Another guy showed up, and another guy didn’t. So it is Anni and the other two. Sandeep brought his car and picked up Anni. The other guy had a bike. Anni didn’t talk much with Sandeep other than occasional yeahs and more yeahs…They arrived at the club by 4:30pm. It was a peaceful locality with two clay courts. There were already two people playing.

“Okay, anni lets warmup”, said the other guy. “Okay”, Anni said. His first step on the court felt soooo good and his stomach started doing somersaults. His first shot caught and edge on the bat and went high in air. “Cool down dude”, said the opponent. Anni started playing very slowly since he didn’t want to hit the ball out of the court. The first time he hit the ball flat felt so exhilarating but the ball went flying past the base line. Anni couldn’t serve properly as the net was there. His “Tennis” had no nets. His forehand were going out of the court 5 out of 6 times. He couldnt even switch to backhand as he was terribly slow. Once he hit the ball out of the club. He even forgot the rules about the second serve and such stuff and was given reprimanding looks from people there. His markings on the terrace, his upper and lower limit lines were meaningless now. He hit the ball very hard once and the guts gave away. Many of them came out. He borrowed Sandeep’s racquet. But found no improvement. All his im a singles specialist thing was being revealed. . Tennis, his favourite game turned into a nightmare.

“Hey…anni…why don’t you sit down and watch how we play”, said the other guy. “Okay”, said Anni utterly disappointed. He watched them play gracefully. They had very good backhand shots in store. Their forehand never left the court. They didn’t perspire like Anni while playing. Mannnn…..this is tennis….Anni thought. Im deceived by my terrace….he thought. They played for around 45mins without even thinking that Anni is there. Later, they talked about going to the tournament and asked Anni to go home and learn some tennis. “Dude….you should practice a lot…its not easy”, said Sandeep. “Yeah”, said Anni. His confidence was blown away. He was very much embarrassed to stay there. “Ok….all the best…im getting late…I’ll better leave”, said Anni with moist eyes. He started heading back home and realized he hadn’t eaten since 1pm. He took a bus to Vijaynagar and had a masala dosa, dahi vada. The boarded another bus to his house. It was 7pm when he reached home. He was in no mood to speak to anyone. Completely dejected, added to that the effect of dosa took him to sleep in no time.
Sooo……this was his first experience with real tennis.

P.S: Tennis is hard……

Saturday, June 13, 2009

The trip to the valley....(contd)



So, we left Haridwar towards The valley of flowers. The journey was from Haridwar to Shikhardham by road transport and then a 15kms trek through the Himalayas. The journey was breathtaking. We were constantly by the side of the ferocious Ganges till we reached Devghar , where we had to take a deviation from the main road towards Shikhardham. I simply cannot describe by words how the travel was... yeah by the way, we were travelling by bus. There werent any major road blocks as described ny some of the localites except for the 2 hr delay due to a landslide. The traffic was low when compared to the roads leading to Badrinath. Ani managed to hold back his nausea only until we reached Shikhardham, he almostly involuntarily crossed the highway as soon as we reached our base camp and puked the hell out of himself. Meanwhile, myself and Anni had been into the beauty of our journey so much that we didnt give time for our brains to react to the somersaults the food were doing in our bellies. We, reached there by 7:00 pm and the gates that lead to Bhyundar were closed. They would open at 6:00 the next morning, and we planned to leave by 7:00 am. It was told to us that the trek would take a minimum of 5 ½ hrs, and we did take that much. Anni was all excited about beating this conventional trek time, but he eventually settled to the stipulated time. That night, after many nights was amzingly peaceful. I mean, considering the events we had been through we were definitely tired. All three of us went into deep slumber only to be awaken by the chill air through the open windows at 6:00 the next morning. We all got prepared for the trek by 7:00 and were ready to leave. SO, finally Bhyundar it was.

The first 5 or 6kms of the trek was definitely exciting, but the excitement fell away very soon when we found ourselves panting for sufficient oxygen. We took snaps of each other, meanwhile Anni slept for another half an hour before we resumed our trek. The path was treaded by thousands of tourists who had been to this place before us, so we were lucky to have a readymade path to the valley. We saw many sages on the way, and yeah they were really sages. Their face seemed to radiate some kind of warmth ,some kind of brilliance.....we even started to imitate them by being calm, not cracking mindless jokes and such stuff. After about 6 hrs, we were at the gates of the valley.The security gave us each a first aid kit and let us into the valley. At first, the valley seemed to contain no flowers at all, considering our expectations. But as we went deep, around 1km or so, we were dumbstruck....there was this huuuuuuuuuuugggggggggeeeeee area of the valley covered with a spectrum flowers. I’ll bet my life, you cannot have a more majestic sight than this one. I had tears in my eyes....tears of ‘its beautiful’.....tears of ‘humans are soooo tiny’....taers of ‘we made the right decision’.....I was not the only one who experienced this....both Anni and Ani second me on this. This filled us with so much of energy and enthusiasm that we wanted to trek further.

“Hey....shall we climb this hill and have a better panoramic view of this place!!!!”, said Anni.”Agreed”said both myself and Ani. We climbed the hill for like 2hrs....we really wanted to get a better view if there was any. As we had emptied all our snacks on our way....we were running short of fuel in us and Anni was the first to be the victim of extreme hunger. “Guys....i cannot climb further....ufff...ufff....i need something to eat....i dont know my insides are starting to shiver like hell....please get me something to eat....”, cried Anni. I panicked at this situation and started looking for any available fruits. This was truely a dumb idea. Every fruit in some valley in the himalayas might not be edible. I found these apple sized pink berries. “Anni...take eat these...you might feel better....we better get back to the gate...its already 4:00pm...”, i said comfortingly.Anni ate those berries and found instant relief. I was the geinius of the moment. “Hey.....its okay...i fine now....lets atleast get to the top of this hill....we wont be coming hear anytime later as i know”, Anni called. “yeah man lets do it”, Ani said.”But guys, look ahead what if one of us feels horrible as Anni did and we were to struggle our way back”, I retorted.”Come on doc....lets give it a shot...according to you we shoud have been in Badri right now”, Anni said. I thought “That is the whole point, we should have the adventure of our lives”. “Ok...”,I said.

We reached the hill top in the next 15mins, when Anni started feeling a worse pain in his body. His muscles started twitching like a fish out of water. “AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGHHHHHHHH.........”, Anni cried.”Wats happpeennnninnngggg”, Ani said loud. I was about to wet my pants. It was the most horrific scene i had ever seen. Anni was wriggling on the ice floor like hell. I knew instantly that the berries were taking its toll on him. Why did we come here....whyyyyyyyyy......why did those guys in train told their story to us......whyyyyy is this happening.... were some of the thoughts going through my head. “God....please help us.....we will never get ourselves into this kind of situation anymore”, Ani was literally praying aloud with folded hands.After few minutes, Anni’s twitching had reduced considerably, he was now just shivering. His face had gone completely pale and lifeless.To be honest...for a moment i thought he would die...The thought of our hometown came to me and the stress of the entire trip took a toll on me too...i collapsed...all i remember after that is being woken up in hotel back in Shikhardham.
After i went unconcious.....this is what Anni claims to have happened......
“Ani....please helpppp.., im dying...ican feel that”,whispered Anni shiveringly when incidently even Ani collapsed and went unconcious.These are the moments in life which can have neither prior predictions nor future ‘ i had expected this’statements. After a minute or so....when Anni was almost ready to give away his fight to survive, a sage appeared from nowhere out of Anni’s sight. “What happened child”, the sage’s voiced echoed Anni’s almost numb ears.”Am i going to dieeee??????”, whispered Anni with tears rolling out of his eyes.”Hahaha....ofcourse not...ofcourse not.....i wanted you to feel what real pain is and try to appreciate the life you have rather than crib about it everytime”, the voice echoed more clearly this time. Anni was shocked to hear this...”Who are you???and how do you know i hate my own life”, Anni asked this time not whispering. “And how am i feeling better as you came here”,Anni asked,”Who are you????”.”Iam for you to find out my boyyy........i am always with you....you have to only recognise me.....”the voice echoed the entire valley,”There are millions of creatures around you who have a life worse than what you experienced minutes ago......you are very lucky to be born as a human being with such ‘facilities’......utilise the oppurtunity you have been given to find the ultmate truth....”,and the voice died away.The sage then held Anni’s hand and lifted him up.Anni claims that, the entire world around him felt warmer in the chilling weather, every other sound died away giving room for absolute silence.....it was then he heard something that he cant say, he cant express but he felt an unimaginably huge gratitude towards Him for giving him this life. The sage started to fade away...Anni couldnt open his mouth....as the sage started to fade away light which seemed to be emanating from trillions to candles engulfed the three of us and that is what Anni remembers.

“Heyyy....what happened...whattttt happened...”,I was screaming at the top of my voice the next day at the hotel in Shikhardham.It was then Anni narrated this incident to us. None of us spoke for some time after he completed. May be i was not qualified enough to witness Him......i thought.The journey back was a lot happier and contended. We, specially Anni had experienced what most of the people of our age would ever dream of. We cherished every little incident from that day. This was what we called ‘THE TRIP TO THE VALLEY’. Hope you people have a similar trip. Be careful...dont pick out any berry just to fill your stomach.

Friday, May 29, 2009

The trip to the valley.....


HI everyone….its been a long time since u heard a story about anni since he got lost in his neighborhood. This time its different and on a larger scale…the stakes are high and anni had finished his 6th sem exams. Sadly according to him, he had scored ‘low’ in exams compared to his class mates. However, people at home were really happy about his scores and had actually allowed him to goto BADRINATH with us, myself and ani. Cool right…..yeah I know. Badrinath is in the state of Uttaraanchal, Gahrwal Himalayas. This was the experience of lifetime for us and we learned real real important lessons from our adventure(it was really). It was August 18th, 2010.

“Anni…be careful…don’t kid yourself when you goto Ganga riverrrrrr….”, these were the words we heard from anni’s parents when the Karnataka express started to roll its wheels at the Bangalore City railway station. We had booked our to and fro tickets a month ago to Delhi on the Karnataka express and from Delhi to Haridwar on the Mussorie passenger. We couldn’t believe that our parents had allowed the three of us to goto Uttaranchal. The plan devised at home in front of our parents was that we would go to Haridwar and from there, goto Badrinath stay there for maximum of 2 nights, get back to Delhi and to Bangalore from there, after the usual trip to Agra and Mathura everyone takes. The plan stayed undisturbed until we reached Bhopal, where we were joined by another group of guys going to Badrinath. “Is this your first time to the Himalayas?”, asked one of those guys. “Yeah….and we are excited as hell…what about your’s sir??”, asked Anni. “Well we have been to the Gahrwal 6 times before….we actually want to visit all the piligrimages there….this might be our last time…and we are heading to Badrinath this time….and yess, we are excited”,explained the commuter. “Where all have you people been before in the Himalayas”,I asked. “Well….as he said, we have been there 6 times before and we have been to… Kedarnath, Bhyundar,Bhyundar again, Gangotri, Yamunotri and Hrishikesh alone coz the weather was brutal that season and we couldn’t go further”, explained another guy from the group. “They seemed to be really interested in bhyundar”, I thought. Apparently Ani was also thinking the same thing and he asked “Whats so so special at bhyundar, is it a tourist spot or something??”. “Ofcourse it’s a tourist spot, it’s the beautiful place ive been to in my life and im sure icant find any place better than that on this planet my boy”, said an elderly person from the group. This was the moment where everything started to fall in place to make our trip memorable and life threatning at the same time.

It was 10 in the night when the tales about this place Bhyundar started to unfold. It was also called THE VALLEY OF FLOWERS, mystic right….We really found it hard to believe that there is a valley which has almost every species of flower in it. That too a valley full of it….unbelievable. That night….i still remember, none of us three could sleep. Leave apart that the train was wobbling like a cradle set in some sort of ‘jerk’ mode, it was this incredible oppurtunity in front us to goto Bhyundar. Ani was frequently looking at both of us searching for some ‘So Bhyundar it is!!!’ looks . Finally at 3 am in the morning Ani broke the ice, “Hey , I know you guys are afraid to break the code, but lets goto Bhyundar…We have been to Badrinath with our parents. Lets do something different this time!!!Im sure we cant go to Himalayas together for a very very long time after this one!!!”. “Yeah, I second ani”,Anni seconded. I had no choice, really, I saw no other options open, including the obvious option of going to Badrinath as planned. The name valley of flowers had sink in soooo much into me that, everything else sounded inferior to that. I know its crazy….but that’s how I felt…thanks to those 7th time going himalayan freaks. The next day, we replanned our schedule with a great amount of help from those people who inspired us to do that. We planned to start our journey from Haridwar to Valley of flowers from 22nd august, stay there for 3 nights and return to Delhi by 28th morning and catch our return journey train the same evening. We gave up the Delhi darshan and the Agra-Mathura trip which bought us an extra day. We would cancel the return ticket from Haridwar to Delhi and thought taking a bus back to Delhi from Haridwar, which would again buy us some time. The plan was ready by that night, fully foolproof. We very well knew that nothing should go wrong in our plan, as people at our homes were unaware of anything about this. That’s what we ‘PLANNED’.

We reached Delhi on 20th morning, took rest in the station itself as we needed to save some money for our unexpected adventure. We boarded the Mussorie passenger at 8:00pm the same night and reached Haridwar the next morning at 6:30. We really needed to take bath, we hadnt taken bath since almost 3 days. So, we stayed in Hotel International, which resembled absolutely nothing international, for couple of hours.Then, we went to the Ganages to have bath. It was truly awesome, the water was totally cold, icould feel my heart throbbing rather than beating. It was literally like the water taken out from a refrigerator but sweeter. It was the first glimpse of Himalayan treat awaiting for us. I can never forget that river bath I had. I wish there was a Ganga river in Bangalore. I know its far more impossible than wanting a 10.00 cgpa in your grade card. So, we enjoyed to our fullest in the Ganges and headed back to ‘international hotel’ . After having lunch, we went to see Haridwar, the Harki-pouri, Chandi devi the calm fields nearby were just magnificent for city boys like us. This was the kind of break we were craving for. Life become so stress free when you come to these places. You can really experience the 24hrs in a day, unlike in Bangalore or anyother city where relativity has its upper hand. Okay I maybe wrong with the physics, but in short LIFE ROCKS IN HARIDWAR…..Our next destination was the valley of flowers….little did we know what was in store for us….little did we know the consequences of our hectic schedule…unaware and totally not bothered about anything other than bhyundar, we started our journey towars the mighty Hiamalayas………

To be continued………

Friday, March 27, 2009

A FADE OF THE DARK........


“Byeeeeeeeee anni.....see you tomorrow”,yelled akash, one of anni’s classmates. “Yeah, tata....bring my classwork tomorrowwwww.....”, anni shouted back, waving his hand. It was an ideal Thursday afternoon when you are kind of relieved that the next day would be your last working day in the week. Anni, had come back from school and it was around 3 p.m. He was in his 3rd grade. Anni’s house had been shifted to yelahanka, a satellite town to Bangalore. The locality was perfect for someone like him, wide roads to cycle around, huge empty sites to play cricket, funny friends to play with etcetc. There were two college going sisters next to anni’s place, whom he thought were going to make it big in badminton as he saw them do nothing other than play shuttle badminton. They had decided to goto a newly constructed Ganesha temple in that locality. As usual, anni had nothing to do with his studies until his father or brother came back. “Hi....do u mind if i joined you girls to the temple?.....even i have a bicycle....i ride it really fast...”, anni thought he impressed them with his bicycle thing. “Okay....kid...you can, but you have to stay with us....we are going to our friend’s house first and then to the temple...we might be late when we return”, said one of them. “AAhh....its fine im a big boy and im used to being late”, anni said with absolute cool. The sisters giggled at his over acting and said,”Okay boss...you can come, but inform your mom that u’ll be back at 7p.m”. Anni felt a little discomfort at those words, 7p.m was too late for him and he knew that. Still, he thought going to a temple wouldn’t make his parents mad at him even if he was that “late”. “Maa...im going to ganesha temple with those badminton champs next door, and ill be back in an hour”, anni yelled out checking the chains of his bicycle. “Okay, but be back soon, please don’t get scoldings from dad even today”, anni’s mom said. So, the three of them started to the temple.

It seemed that, the badminton sisters ‘ main motto was to goto their friend’s place and chat like mad. Their friend’s house was really far from anni’s place and he knew he shouldn’t have joined them. They went through narrow cross roads, wide deserted roads, really crowded streets etc and finally they had arrived at the ‘friend’s’ place. Their friend was really weird according to anni, the chat was taking place outside the house, none were invited into the house. The discussion was mainly based on some supposedly supercool incident where a guy from their class had invited them to his birthday party. Anni, was cycling little rounds infront of their house. He was extremely tensed at the thought of time. It was 6p.m already. Finally, the discussion got over with indecisive conclusions about what present should be given to that boy of their class. Their next heading was the temple.

The temple was in middle of nowhere according to anni, as he had no clue about the routes he was taken through. They reached the temple and it was 6:30 p.m. As soon as they entered the temple it started raining moderately, and the badminton sisters decided to leave immediately. Anni was relieved, as it was already tooooooooo late for him. The sisters resorted to some shortcut they knew to reach home quickly, and the route was through a slum area. They were peddling real fast, and anni was in no way upto them. Anni thought that first thing he would do after going home was to practice cycling, invite the badminton sisters for a race and beat them by some margin. The rain got heavier and heavier with every few seconds. The moment came which anni dreaded the most,when suddenly he lost sight of the sisters. This was a disastrous development, as he had no clue of the route back to home. He kept on cycling and in reality he had been cycling in a direction which would in no way take him home. Anni, felt a mixture of emotions when he realised how late he was. Tears started rolling down his face. He cycled for 30minutes and reached some dark deserted wide road.The scene was pitch black, there were no buildings, no sign of any traffic, it was like some abandoned highway. There were tall grasses on both the sides of the road. The rain was hitting him like bullets, as he paced his way through. All kinds of unwanted thoughts were occurring to anni. He thought of himself being driven over by some vehicle, or someone kidnapping him and torturing him to death etcetc. The fear of being late to home was by no doubt replaced by fear of being alone in that area. He cursed the badminton sisters as much as he could. When he had lost all hopes, someone called, “oooooyyyyeee”, from behind him. Anni was so relieved that someone other than him was there at that place.

A middle aged person came up, slightly drunk, and asked anni, “What on earth are you doing here kid”. “I don’t know, i got lost when i was on my way back home, please can you help me?”, anni pleaded. Anni didn’t know that, the person whom he was talking to was a well known antisocial element of Bangalore. The bad guy grinned at anni and said, “ofcourse ill help you if you do what i say”, “yesyes, ill do whatever you say”, said anni. They walked together in silence for about 30minutes. Anni still had his bicycle. Anni felt his insides doing somersault when he realised that people at home would be nerve crackingly tensed. They came to a partly constructed apartment, where anni could see a fire lit.The sight of fire made him realise how cold he felt, he was shivering like mad. They went in and the warmth anni expected, from both fire and the people inside, never showed up. The people inside were totally drunk and playing cards. “AAAYYYEEE.....bring me some beer....”, ordered one of them to anni. Anni was shocked to hear that. He went inside a room which was stuffed with alcoholic products. “Lets, keep this kid with us”,”nonono, lets get rid of this kid...ihavent killed anyone till now, let me do this”,”the kid looks good lets keep him, might come handy for begging purposes”........Anni heard these when he was searching for the beer bottles. He was dumbstruck. He felt his body go numb. He knew he couldn’t afford to cry out loud. Tears were rolling out of his eyes at fast rate, he felt his face shudder with fear, his head was searing with pain. Very slowly and very carefully, anni started slipping out of the building. It was easy as the building was hollowish kind of. One of the bad guys spotted anni and shouted, “oooooyyyyeeee....im gonna kill uuuuuuuu.....”. They started chasing him, but this time he was quicker as he had his bicycle with him. The drunkards fell back(as they were drunk). Anni was peddling with all his might.He heard someone else panting hard other than him. He noticed that, the bad guys had sent a dog after him as their substitute. The dog looked as though it had been starving for food from a week and anni was a perfect prey.If it had not been for anni’s constant cycling practice evry evening, he would have surely fainted. The strain on his legs were enormous, both his body and mind were tired beyond all measures. The supposedly pleasant Thursday evening had turned into a nightmare.

Back at anni’s place, the tension in his family was at its peak. His mom was sobbing for having permitting him to go to the temple. The badminton sisters were being reprimanded massively by their parents. Anni’s father and brother had gone for rounds to search thrice and had found no clue about anni’s whereabouts. It was already 9:30 p.m. The rain didn’t even seem to calm down, on the contrary it was building up slowly. One of the other neighbours had come over to give anni’s mother some moral support. The atmosphere was gray and electric at the same time.

The hungry dog, never ceased to reduce its pace. As the road was wide, anni could peddle with some unknown confidence which every driver experiences. He remembered every great personality he could and about their hardwork and peddled still quicker. The dog started falling back slowly, like a Honda f1 in a straight sector against Mclaren Mercedes. When anni thought every thing was back to square one of the original problem of being lost, the cycle chain slipped on the gear and it gave away. Anni hit his knee to the front bar so hard that, for an instant he thought his leg had broken apart into two pieces. He fell on the road scratching his arms and legs. His skin tore away instantly as he was exposed to water for so long. The dog caught up within seconds. Anni could barely open his eyes but could feel a bright light some distance away, and within 2 or 3 seconds, he heard an ear shattering crash and the dog screaming. The dog’s scream died down. Anni, felt it with his eyes closed. The dog had died. A speeding truck had run over both his bicycle and the dog.

Anni opened his eyes very slowly with a searing pain in his knees. He saw the dog squashed, in the dark. He felt sorry for the dog had to die so unceremoniously. His bicycle was in no way recognisable. The rain had calmed down. Now his main aim was to get back. The newly found relief gave anni an enormous amount of will power and confidence. He walked limping, in a direction which his intuition had chosen to. The time was about 10:15 p.m. It really didn’t bother him. He had been through situations where none of school going kids could even dream of. He imagined he would be in newspapers the next morning with title, ‘Bravery comes in small sizes also’ or something like that. As he was walking, he saw a cow which he instantly recognised. It used to be at corner of the street where he lived. He instantly knew that, he could get beck home if he stayed with it.

So, he started going along with the cow in the dark. The rain had almost stopped. Anni felt a great sense of achievement. The cow would stop for grazing very often, but that didn’t bother anni. After about half an hour, he was about 1000 yards from his house and he found his brother coming searching for him. Anni ran with all his might towards his brother and started crying out loud. It was all safe at last. When he returned home, he narrated everything, how he lost the badminton sisters, how he ran into a drunkard, the truck accident and everything else. He was praised for his bravery specially by his mom. He was like a hero of the night.

The happiest moment occurred to anni when his dad promised him a new bicycle and he was advised to skip his school the next day, which meant three days of holidays. As regarding the race with the badminton sisters, it didn’t take place. But till anni got a new bicycle, he was allowed to use any of their two bicycles.....

Saturday, February 14, 2009

SURPRISE, its KANNADA!!!!!!!!!!


Tick, tick.......tick, tick......tick, tick.....the clock was ticking the last few minutes of what seemed to be an eventful hour....”Everyone tie up your papers, its almost time”, said a high pitched voice from the corner of the room, which seemed colder than the Siberian winter . It was Monday,11th of March Yes.... anni was writing 1 of his final exams and this one is in his 2nd grade.

“Hey anni want to join me, im going to the ground to play cricket”, said vikram, a tall boy, with curly hair and girlish voice, who was in his 3rd grade. Most of the schoolkids had finished their exams and were busy hosting cricket tournaments, kabaddi tournaments, running race events and few other stuff. “I love to come but, maneli bidalla , i have 3 more exams left”, i said. Its perhaps the most painful thought that other kids have finished their exams and u have not. Vikram said, “Ask your dad once and tell me, ill be waiting here”, i said, “ but don’t stay here if i don’t come out within 3minutes, else u might get real scoldings for disturbing me”.

It was Saturday 9th march, 10 a.m. and my father was reading the business section in The Indian Express, there was some issue regarding the finance minister gobbling huge amounts of money in a software scandal (ok, i don’t remember properly). “Appa, ill ask u something and u shudnt get angry”, i said. He didn’t seem to be interested in my proposal and i repeatedly said that for 3 times, finally, “OKAY, let me first hear what you have to say, and what on earth are you doing .....roaming around with your exams on Monday????”, my father said. NO, i wasn’t wasting time, i was reading from past half an hour i thought. “ Can i goto play cricket to the ground for just half an hour???please, ill read the entire day after coming back”, i said, with adrenaline pumping so hard that i had almost took my bat and started swinging it. “Shut up and stop being crazy, now go and study for Mondays exam, what do you have on Monday???”, my dad said. “ please, ive been studying from half an hour and i want a break”, i said. “Mucchu baayi, what have you studied in just half an hour, and with those hot wheels cars around you, you will definitely score very low if your attitude is like this”, and i started crying loud enough so that vikram could get the signal. He indeed got the signal. “What exam do you have on Monday, bring your classwork ill ask questions from that”, my father said. I couldn’t imagine why i did all this, and in the end all i got was an invite(not really an invite) from my dad to the questionnaire session. There were these three exams left, kannada, social studies and moral science. The last one was considered to be a cakewalk even by a nursery kid.

I saw the timetable and inferred that i had social studies for Monday. The subject most schoolkids dreaded, and i was no exception. So i took the classwork to my dad and he started asking questions from the first. I really screwed up that session, i couldn’t answer any question properly. Again, i got real hard scoldings from every1 in the house and went back to study. I tried to study as much as i could. Somehow , completed half the portions by 7 o clock in the evening, by the time my brother came back from college. “Annnnniiiiiiii, aayteno odidduuu” , my dad called. "Man, i want to live in a hostel during exam days" , i thought. “ Yes, its almost done, give me 5 more minutes”, i screamed. The 5 more minutes was just for the mental preparation to face the questions. The interview with my dad went fine, and it was around 9:30 p.m. “Saaku anni odiddu, oota maadi malko”, my mom said. I was very happy at this proposal and accepted it with gratitude :D. The next morning and noon were mostly spent on revising the 1st half and preparing for the second half of the subject. It was awful and painful. How much should a kid study???Preparation for social studies got over by 6 p.m. and i was given some free time. I wondered how many matches would my friends play everyday, how many kulfis they eat and such stuff. I thought i would be free for the entire evening, but guess what, “anni, read for the next exam, you have to do well in kannada this time, last time you got through very marginally,remember??”, my brother called me in. I am innocent, i have done nothing wrong.....Okay, kannada it was, i read some 6 chapters like a story book (most of them were stories). Finally, i had food and slept peacefully. The exam beared no pressure on me, it was the preparations and interview sessions with my father that sent chill waves down my spine. The exam was at nine ‘o’ clock in the morning, and i got prepared with all the materials required for the exam including the hall ticket. My brother dropped me to school at 8:30, and when i went in i got the biggest shock of my life. Everyone was preparing for kannada, shit, im doomed, ill fail, oh my GOD save me were the thoughts running in my head. I had prepared for the wrong exam, it appears that i had seen the timetable for the midterm exam when my dad had asked. During such intense moments solitude is your best partner. I tried to cover the tears trickling down my face but couldn’t. Its a big surprise for a 2nd grade kid to handle. I went to the exam hall as quickly as possible without talking with anyone.

Everyone settled down and i was muttering every prayer i could remember. Even then i was half heartedly expecting social studies paper to be distributed. I got my question paper and it was kannada indeed. The exam was for 1 hour. First i wrote everything i could remember from the notes. By the end of half an hour, i had attempted for around 20 marks. “Holy crap, my dad was right, i am going to get awful score and even possibly be detained”, i thought. Again the fear caught on me, and i started answering stupidly to every question. I remembered very hard the stuff that i had read the previous night. I really thanked my brother in my mind then for making me read kannada. For the questions that carried lot of marks, i created my own stories and wrote whatever i could ....atleast to fill the paper. The thought of being detained for 1 year made my sweat glands go bonkers, i was sweating as though playing a 50 over match in Zimbabwe.

Tick, tick.......tick, tick......tick, tick.....the clock was ticking the last few minutes of what seemed to be an eventful hour....”Everyone tie up your papers, its almost time”, said a high pitched, cold voice from the corner of the room, which seemed colder than the Siberian winter . It was the invigilator. I tied up the papers, and was confident that i would make it to 3rd grade. Triiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnggggggggg......it was over finally. I had written an exam without actually preparing for it. Its like winning a gold medal in Olympics for me. I came back home and narrated the whole incident at home and i wanted some appreciation. No , i was called careless, irresponsible, idiot etc etc. It didn’t seem to affect me because, i was on top of the world that day, and moreover my preparations for social studies were over, yipppiiieee. I had a day holiday for social studies. For my heroic effort regarding kannada exam, i was made to read moral science also, in case i was again wrong with the time table. Can u imagine it, i was preparing for an exam which was considered a cakewalk even by the nursery kids with social studies the next day!!!!!!!!

P.S: Anni got through 2nd grade with bare minimum marks in kannada but awesome score in social studies. :D

Monday, February 9, 2009

ANNI winds his clock.....


Hi all, this time it’s a blog about anni’s wandering thoughts about the past.....it’s his narration this time and please bear if he over narrates some things.....Okay here it goes......

PS: This blog might be a bit boring.....its like a karan johar version of anni......just a kind of precaution. :)

CLASS nursery to 5rd grade:

This was perhaps THE happiest time in my life. I stayed in a small town called Gorakhpur, Uttar Pradesh. There were absolutely no worries about anything other than the small stuff like losing a game of cricket or hide and seek etc. Back then i always imagined how it would be when i was 19 or 20 years of age and it seemed so nice and awesome from that far back in time. Every small event around seemed so observable and sensible, like an old lady carrying a pot of water, a middle aged man talking about his work on phone, a butterfly trapped in my house and me opening a window to let it go etc etc. I had friends who were mostly hindi speaking so even i learnt hindi so well that i usually forgot kannada words. I came to Bangalore for my 1st grade and joined assumption school.Dont ask me why the school had that name. Everything looked sooooo strange here initially. Firstly i didn’t know to write in kannada properly and secondly people in this part of the country seemed to be really not straight forward as i observed back then. The prospect of being in school for the whole day was nightmarish. I still remember those horrible starting days at school. There was this teacher at school who used to handle social studies and she really really used to strike terror in my heart. I remember myself crying sooo many times when she took her scale to threaten us little kids when ‘TALKING’......It was a treat everyday to come home when school got over, coz all i used to do was play around with my brother. Arrival of Saturday was the bonus of the week, and arrival of Monday was equally painful.The only prospect of boredom was completing the ‘CLASSWORK’ and arrival of Monday. Now, i cant believe how much of fun it was. So that was it till 5th grade in assumption school.

CLASS 6th grade to 10th grade:

For my 6th standard schooling i got into vani school(cbse). This part of the schooling was equally awesome and unforgettable. Ours was the first batch for 6th grade and there were around 14students in class. The awesome part was we didn’t have text books for 4 months. Sooooo we used to sit along with 5th grade students and sleep most of the time or play some games like book cricket, narrate some horror stories to each other and get nervous unnecessarily etcetc. The teachers here were truely good because none of them used to get mad at students for petty stuff like not bringing pencil, rubber, class work etc, and it was exactly what i needed, no text books, no classes and lenient teachers....immaturity at its best. Finally the text books arrived and guess what after about 2months Dr.Rajkumar gets kidnapped by veerappan. It was a yipppie for every school kid......u got holidays for more than a month due to some strikes going on across the state, again immaturity at its best :D. So, 6th grade got over with inerasable memories in my head. For 7th standard i got into vani(icse). The class which i got into seemed to have a lot of big brains ( one of them is currently in iitm), and i felt absolutely at sea when i saw the textbooks. I mean they had 3books for science can u believe it....atleast for me it was unbearable. I never got decent score there especially in science and math coz usually everything went over my head. I remember doing a bit decently in hindi as ihad that background. The friends i made in 7th grade were awesome and still are :P . Next phase: i couldn’t bear with the course pressure in icse...so got shifted to state syllabus in the same school and remained there till end of schooling. 8th and 9th were mostly spent in writing classworks, trying to be the class leader, bench leader, switch leader and such trivial posts and more importantly trying to impress the teachers. Everybody had computer in their houses by then (its different that i had it when i was in 5th grade :P), and exchanging game cds was a big time business back then. There was this NCC program at school and it was nothing more than torturing urself with stupid exercises voluntarily. But again it was awesome as the whole friends’ circle had volunteered :D . 10th standard was mostly about writing tests, exams, collecting question papers of previous years’ both in college and in tuition. Students were hell bent upon memorizing everything they could find (including page numbers hehe). It was repeatedly told to us that this was the ‘TURNING POINT’ in ur lives. I really don’t know that i turned properly or not :D .Every student tried to get 100pc in every test or exam. There were scores like 615/625......not mine though....... those who scored such high marks were treated with lot of respect and humility.....even i did that......i considered myself to be lucky if such people talked to me.....i was under such an unbelievable illusion....schooling got over and yes it was time for college now.....finally i was into college......iwas finally going to college which i used to imagine when i was in my lkg and ukg......woooow.....everything seemed so beautiful.......

The PREUNIVERSITY life:

As you would know when a child comes out of schooling the thing he/she really wants after his PU is to get into IIT(atleast in metropolitan cities). I wasn’t any exception......igot into this institute ACE to get myself prepared for JEE. Truth be told, i was literally dumbstruck when isaw the volume of the course.....a physics/chemistry/math book for 11th grade cbse guys was around 1200 pages......my GOD....i was only used to by hearting stuff from a 100 pages book........it was a real hard time for me at that institute initially but i got used to it as i had no other options......it was like gymming your brain to be something like aamir khan in ghajini.....iwent to this sardar patel pu college and it was a really good college, with friendly friends, friendly ‘LECTURERS’ etc :D . I just couldnot continue with JEE preparation in my second year and ihad to leave that and joined a PU tuition. I felt like a coward soldier running back home after realizing the mammoth opposition. So, i was again back byhearting everything i could.....finally managed to get a decent score and decent rank in CET but a horrible rank in AIEEE and remained unranked in JEE(not a surprise). Again the 2nd PU examination was considered to be another ‘TURNING POINT’ in a student’s life.....this time im really skeptical about that turn....ithink i just turned a bit too much......

ENGINEERING MY LIFE AHEAD:

My ukg dreams had really come true.....i was 18 and it was not at all exciting as i had presumed....this is currently the sucky part of my jurny......1year of my engineering went by as i made new friends and got to know what it really takes to be an engineer. I had the most ego shattering experiences after coming to this course. All the confidence that was nurtured from the end of 10th grade has been washed away and all that is left is utter confusion. I think this is the case of many students right now....it gets really difficult when u see ur real face in the mirror.....u cant stand that u r nothing but a goof in the technical ocean or ocean of science or watever......its all part of growing up and u gotta beat that thought and define urself......life never ceases to surprise us and its a surprise indeed....ok i don’t know wat i just said, but plz consider it to be remotely philosophical.... :D. I think the actual journey has started now and its really amazing to see that u are still at ground zero after all these days. All those turning points led me to this starting point......wow......it sounds so filmy.....okay more of my stories in next blog......bye....